thrashtalk

sigh

whaddya want from me?

I don't know who to trust, to listen to anymore. It's like all of my surroundings are filled with strangers and just strangers.
Tell me. Who should i trust the most? Besides God of course.

I'll just leave everything to Allah. Since He's the one who knows what's going through my mind and heart.
I can't lie. It's my disadvantage. But please don't take my disadvantage as your advantage.

Im tired. Im seriously am.
I can't wait for my attachment to start.

Im not mad at anyone. Im mad at myself.
For being a soft-hearted. For being a fool towards lots of things.
Im such a klutz. Im not perfect. I have my mistakes.
And im mad at myself for that. I pissed off with myself.

I really feel like deleting away my social medias. Facebook, twitter and others. But guess what?
I can't. It seems like a girl like me can't seem to get away from new technologies etc.

Cut things short.
I spent my first few days of October with friends. I went to Salvation Army to get some stuff. Bought a dress and a jacket since i don't own one. The next day went and watch Annabelle. Scare the heck put of me for the past half an hour.
But it was awesome.
Tiring and yet awesome. Fun.

For now, i just wanna stay at home and finish reading my book. I just wanna stay at home.
Why is it that i'm such an easy target to get hurt?
sigh.
*rolls eyes*
Can i just go for an adventure instead? Get rid all these negativity aura that surrounds me? I wanna go museum- hopping, or just go for a hiking. Or just a random walk down that road or path that leads to a secret place.