#Thrashtalk

For so long i've not updated this blog and now i'm updating it.

I have no idea what i'm feeling right now.

A mixture of anxious and sad and anger is all within me..
To think back from the past.

It's like something just stuck there and i can't seem to get through it. I can't understand what all this mean.
I'm confused and to be honest, i felt lost.
I have no idea what i need to do.
What is really happening..?

I've been given a warning but never do i realised that it would occur to me how true it is now.
Is it just me..? Or is it real..?

In other words, i don't want any of this to be real. I don;t want it.
Honestly right now. The sense of negativity is like surrounding me and i don;t know why. How am i suppose to stop all this..?? I kept thinking and thinking without stop.
For a moment, i thought i would be able to overcome all this but i realise that i can't.
=(
thrashtalk.