Trashies

*sighs*
I met my friend aka my sister..
Helping her out with taking photos...
So, yup...
I miss my friends...
I meant..
My previous school friends..
Cos they seem to understand me more than the others.
And one thing is.
I hate guys who like to call my name with a tone that sounds as if he's forcing me to be there and do whatever crap for him.
Please uh.
You called my name  nicely can?
Don't be rude can?
Are you a guy?
Or a girl?
Are you a jerk?
Or a bitch?
Whatever it is the answer is in your personality...
So, i have nothing to say.
Whenever i see guys, who likes to show off their muscles or even when they're wearing like singlets?
I felt like. Afraid. And i don't know why.
If they called out my name , i 'll be  so scared to get near them or talk to them  from far.
And i'll start to cry.
And i don't know why.
Whenever my friends' friends just called my name out for fun (guys urh) , i'll start to cry and will walk away.
Sheesh!
What  the heck?
I don't know why.
And i would like to apologized to my friend cos i cried. I don't know why, but the tears will start to drop down and then, i'll walk away.
Silently and quietly, i'll started to cry..
That is the worse cos my friends don't know why.
Why did i started to cry..
And why is it so quietly without making any noises?
=(
*sighs*
Tomorrow will be going out.
Need to find something..
Tried a lot to change but seems like no use.
Everyday, i tried to motivate myself by saying i can do it but when the problems came, i'll be the one who runs away from it and needs friends to be with  to overcome the problems.
And yet, my friend never complained.
Hm...
And i tried my very best but it seems like other people don't appreciate it .
So how?
Sometimes even if i feel sad, no one will know but my heart. My heart seems to understand and tries to comfort me by listening to music... And since then, i started to listen to songs that always cheer me up.
But, when i'm happy or i have some good news, i will always share it out with someone that is closest to me..
Be it my sister or my friends.
Be it my family or my relatives.
B)
*Camera captures the happiest moment in our life*
But to me, it also captures everything. Every single thing that happen in our lives. Be it happiness or sadness.
=)
<3
Okay, maybe i should end it here first. Will continue soon.. Keep reading ya!
Thanks for taking your time to read this trashies!
=)