Just a meet up

erm..another random entry...?

Hey. Another entry to be written here.

Hello March.

Hopefully, you'll be good to me alrites.

Dear February,
thanks for the super fast journey ever.!

It's like, just yesterday were still february and then the next day was March.
Hm.



wow!
Seriously..?

thanks urh...

yep..i'm being too naive right now.. it's too much.. you're too much.

im not someone who you can just call me and ask me for help.
girl. i dun owe you anything.

so what's the fuss?

is it too much for me to stand my ground?

=_=!

darn you.

whoops!

seems like you really don't understand me do you?
oh well.
when you're in need of help, you come to me. when you don't?
where are you for me to find?

you say you've got loads of friends right?
then why don't you ask for help from them instead of me?!

I've been observing your attitude towards me and it's like sucks big shit!
I know you more than them. I know you for very long time.
But it seems  like you don't appreciate whatever help i've given you.
so tell me now. should i just ignore you with an attitude or just ignore you .
plainly ignore you.

moving on...

Keeping it in.

sigh...another entry again..
no pics today.
the sky looks so ... dark?
yes. it's gonna rain.

sigh.
why am i sighing?
i feel tired. really tired.  tired of all those fake smiles that surrounds me . With fake laughters. Like seriously?
Be sincere about it please.

The title of this entry is keeping it in.
That means. Whatever it is, i'll just keep it to myself. Yes. Just keep quiet. Because it seems to me that some people just tends to keep on talking and talking as if they're the only ones who exist in the world.
So, instead of being a brat about it, i'll just keep quiet and listen to their stories.
I don't know why but i feel this is the best way to sort it out. Keeping quiet is the best.

Being left out by your friends then join them back again just because they needed something from
you is just sucks!

I think i had enough of being too kind towards them. Yeah. Maybe i should just shoot them with my words and see how they react, but because i'm too tired about it, i guess keeping quiet is the best then.

I've kept quiet not because i' m mad because of you. It's just that i want to give you time to think of what you've done to me. Your attitude towards me like seriously?
Gosh!
Everyday. Every night. I reflected myself. Think of what i did towards my friends or during the day. And then when i woke up, it feels like a brand new day.
Like it's a chance for me to make it up towards everything.

So far, i've been the one who keeps forgiving but unable to forgot about it.
Yeah, sometimes i wish, that when i woke up, i'll forget those memories . But there are some sweetness  moments in it.
Well,
Just keeping it in then!


Thanks for reading.!
=)

Randomly update.

*RANDOM*

I'm loving my best cuddly Donald Duck plush!

I had it since young and i used to dump it somewhere in my room, but then i recently fell in love with it and decided to bring it back onto my bed.
=)

Plus some teddy bears for accompanying me throughout my stressful and dreadful long hours.
*studying etc*

So here's my miniature of a teddy and donald duck.! =)

The most favorite of all..

I don't care what other people says cause, to me they're precious.
But when it gets so much hassle, then i'll have to donate/throw them away.


Currently waiting for results..!
yikes!

Hello...
Long time never write...
Erm...
Started school about a week ago...
Today i had to follow my timetable as usual..
The problem is the venues..
I had trouble finding them as the place  is huge...
Woke up around 5.30 am and went out around 6.20 am..
Can you imagine..??
The weather nowadays...
Unpredictable...
Ended up i get fever and then the next day high fever.
Great!
But i still went to school...
Can't be bothered to stay at home..
Now, still coughing...
I  had bought books so......
I've started using them..
I need to buy more color pens!!
Seems like i can't live without any colors around me!!
x=
Hm..
Tomorrow class starts at 10 am..
Got plenty of time.....
So...
Currently time now is 8.33pm
And i am super duper tired and anytime now i can just fall asleep on the table with my fingers pressing on the keyboards..(lols!)
Okay!

Hey!!

Hm..

Definitely miss all of my friends!!

All of my squad-mates and my classmates and my school songs perhaps?

Urh!!

Look through the pictures that we've been taken for like hm.. a few years back?

From Sec1 till now??

OMG!

IMAOT TTM!!

Hm..

Staying at home...

Staying at home...

Can't go out...

Can't go out..

Lols!

Can't find any job cos dad don't allow..

hm....

i'm bored.

=d

=F

Emotional reacts!!

Lols!!

Hm..

I wonder what life would be like?

Yesterday, i watched the Activist journey..

This episode really really really touched my heart..

A mother at first wanted to abandon her child which is just a baby but then finally had her heart to take care of her child and can't simply bring herself to throw.

She's strong even though the environment that she lives in is tough, she managed to take care of her baby..

Another part was about a granddaughter who sacrificed herself to find a job as a prostitute to pay for her grandmother's medical fees..

It's really really touching but i somehow felt that life is totally unfair to her!

She's only my age and she's doing a job that is suitable for a 20+age could possibly do!

To her, her grandmother is more important than her dignity.

I felt sorry for her!!

During June holidays, i went to Philippines to do some service-learning.

Trust me, if you guys went there, and see how the children survived for a living, you guys can cry over there!

I also went to their school..

Their school was only four storey high and the school is right next to the rubbish dump which is quite high enough !! Around 7 storey high?

There was 1 day, that we were painting the walls of the school, when suddenly there was a wind.

The wind came in from the rubbish dump.

Trust, me, the smell was so bad that one of my juniors felt like vomiting. 

I can't do or say anything, because to me that was nothing to be compared to what those children have been through.

They can study and play and listened to the teachers even though the weather was very hot and the smell from the rubbish dump . 

I also shocked to see from the school window that there were may houses build beside and just right beside the landside of the rubbish dump.

Some of the residents can still drinks tea on top of the roof with tables and chairs made up of wood.

When i was painting, i saw this little guy, running here and there..

Looking at us, who were working on the painting..

Wanted to try out here and there.

The boy was very friendly and kind.

Some of us took his pictures.

He's kind.

Then when we went back to the house that we were suppose to live in, on our way in the bus, some of us, saw a group of children picking up rubbish !!

Some of them even if saw a piece of bread,they even pick it up, and blew it then just eat it.

I know that we were told about the country problems and etc, but i wondered, why can't the government helps this childrens?

Why won't they help their families?

When i saw this, i did not say anything because, i was too shocked to say a word.

This is my 3rd time i saw this happens.

This is only at Philippines.

Not at Indonesia.

Indonesia worst!

Some of the kids there even resorts to stealing.

They became pickpockets.

And some of them, polished people's boots or shoes to get a coin to buy a bread.

And when they bought the bread, they will share it with their friends.

When i came back from Philippines, when i first reached to the airport or gather with our families, i heard some of my juniors saying "Aaah.. This is what i called Home".

I laughed.

Cos to me , Singapore have been my home and always will be.

I told my sister and my parents all of my experiences occurred at Philippines.

I even told them about the museum.

For Philippines, i like the museum better than the shopping centers ,

There, i saw lots of little figurines and paintings and then i realised that was the exhibitions.

There was a part that i saw a village or somewhat house where there is a flag and lots of villagers were fighting.

There was different colors of people.

Then i realised that was the war.

The war between Philippines and i dun remember ..which country was it.

They were fighting about the country's rights and everything.

But one of the important members get s to escapes!

That's all i know ..

Hm..

To me, life is wonderful because i can find out more interesting things going on around me.

Okay then..

That's all for now.

(Smile always)

=D

Hey!!

Woah left one more paper!

Then say bubbye!!

Hmph!

Yesterday tak sempat nak update so, now i update..

hehes..

Yesterday was our worst NIGHTMARE!!!!

Maths paper 1!!!

All of us were panicking and some of cried before it even started!!

OMG!!

OMG!!

Scary larh seyh!!

Let the picture do the talking..

From last minute studying becomes last minute photo taking..

Candid!!!

Friends!!/Besties!!

Love my friends!!!

Having a friend that will always be there for you through thick and thin, is ONE IN A MILLION!!

Thank you!! For being my friend!!!

Will miss you guys!!

Hey!!!

Mepek!~

Budak2 nie betol2 buat bising arh sia!

So far, mom hadn't yet can get home...

Today, is not a very good day.

Kimak!

Cikgu dah nak ajar, abes, diorang semuerh buat bising!

APERH SIAK!!!

* Kalau korang nie tk nk belajar, then dun come for school larh sial~

SERIUSLY!

Dah bagos siak dierh nk ajar!

F.Y.I,  this incident happens for MATHS!

No mood to update!

Got to go.

Bye!

Hey!!!!

Woah!!!

Besok dah start skolah!!!

Hm..

Kehidupan baru akan kumula kan esok...

Mwahh!!!

Can't wait to start a new life tomorrow!!!

Woah!!!

Love School!!!!

but, tomorrow got Star!!!

Arh!!!

Tomorrow got CPA!!

Yays!!

Hey people!!

Guess today's not my day!

A lot of things going on yesterday and today...

Well at least today is slightly more better than yesterday...

Hm...

Tomorrow...

Saturday...

Supposingly i was to go out with them but due to some circumstances i decided not to...

Needless to say, these holidays is much more tiring than the school days...

Here at home..

Nothing to do besides revision, reading, relax.

The 3 rs.

Hais.

I seriously can't wait for school to reopen...

It is so dull staying at home...

Arh!!!

Can't wait for the school to reopen!!!

Sunday will be the busiest day ever!!!

Me and my mom will be doing cakes!!

Kek Kukus!!

It's a cake that has a lot of stuff in it.

Raisins and fruit..

Dried fruits of course!

Kukus means to steam while kek , i guess you guys should noe about it...

Steamcakes!

But instead of steaming it , we BAKE it...

So here is the photos!!!

I can't wait for this coming Saturdayy!!!

What really means by the word of true friends?

Does that means by backstabbing, hurt each others feelings or compete with each other?

I dun understand at all!!

I dun understand at all about this world!!!

Why is it so hard to find a true friend?

That will always be there no matter what happens?

Where is the thrust?

Where is the loyalty?

What is a friendship if there's no loyalty, thrust and respect?

What is that called?

Look!

I dun want to be your enemy, neither do i want to be your friend!

You've given me enough troubles!

You've given me enough scolding!

If we are gonna be friends, STOP BEING a b**** here!

I dun like it!

You've messed up my life once but i'm not gonna let you mess up other peoples life!

My friends life!

I dun want my friends to be just like you!

(not meant to my friends)

I am such an idiot to choose a friend like you!

Honestly!

You're just treating me nice because i'm kind towards you!

Look!

I am trying to concentrate on my studies and you can just stop all this atrocious attitude towards other people ?

I'm trying to study in peace!

Not in a noisy environment!

___________________________________________

Hey there!

Dun bother about the above..

Guess what?

Results are out!

Well, tomorrow, is SCIENCE and Malay!!

Oaaah!!

So scary!!

Got to go now!

Bye!