Random..

God!
If i could rewind everything, i would right now!
=(
Can't seem to sleep..
sigh..

Been researching for the upcoming projects...
I can't seem to understand you know..

It's like, everything i did, to you. Is wrong.
But on other people views, it is right.

Hey!
I cleared out on my own.
I never seek any help or whatever.
I'm alone doing the housework and all you can do is just keep scolding me..?
Eyh, i'm alone doing it leh..
Nobody help me and yet you can still say what did you do?
I did the sweep,mop and clean my room...
Is it not enough for you?
You just give me like what?
Half a day to do this thing.
And if got help, i don't mind but there's no help!
Dad went out and came home in the afternoon.
So, i'm the only one at home.
Clearing out this and that.
When you came back, all you can say is what  did you do?
I'm so pissed off lurh!
I tried my best to make it spotless and smelt nice leh.
I tried my best!

And you know that i always end school late, and yet you can still told me to do this and that.
And whenever i sleep late, then wake up late for school, you scolded for me not taking on the initiative to set the alarm.
But hey!
You told me to do the dishes, set out the ingredients for you to cook tomorrow, then i have to recap whatever i've learn.
Not fair urh!

When i end early, i tried to help you with everything until i forgotten to do my homework.
Do you know that i'm always stressed up if i didn't do this.?
Then ended up, for the few last minute to midnight, i started to do my homework.
Clever right?!
From monday till today..
I've not rest ..
Rest to me means: Sitting down with peace. No one's around to make so much noise etc.
That's all.
But no, even i just lay my butt on to the sofa, you started shouting my name.
Then i have to rush over and over again.
It's like, never-ending cycle  for me.
Damn sad urh..
Then when i'm too tired to do anything, you will still force me to do it.

And, when i go school, it's like peace.

But when i got home, no comments at all..

And whenever i have problems in school, i tends to keep quiet cos even if i told you about it..
It's like going into your right, came out on your left.
And when i wrote on a book, you say that why am i always writing in that book?
Hello!
It's a diary!
What do you expect?
Urh!

Favor urh..
Just please be nice .
I mean you're not evil bad or what but just please be my good friend like how other mother acts to their daughters and sons..
Just because we're 40 years apart does not meant that you can't be my friend.
Yup.
I know i'm 17 this year.
I do know that whatever i'm doing is my responsibility.
But if i ever had any problems, please be there for me to lend your ear to listen or your shoulder for me to lean on.
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And, i'm damn tired to even response to those who are surrounding me.
All i want is just some space to breathe!
Stop making feel suffocated all the time!! >_<|||
Can?
And i hate it when people keep asking me , so after ITE, where you wanna go?
Get married? Work?
Hey!
Firstly: Is that all you can think of? Marry?
Secondly: It's my life!
Thirdly: Why the heck do you wanna know?
Fourthly: Of course i would choose work urh!
Then i would continue to study again.
So, stop asking me all those nonsense question can?
=)
Good night everybody!