Fixing a broken heart, left opened with a wound that is yet to heal

sigh...
Another day has gone and before you knew it, it's Monday..
sigh!!

Im not the person who is suppose to be responsible so please stop asking me lots of questions can?
Giving suggestions and doing all the work.?
Gosh!
Bravo!
If i were to be sick on that day itself, if i were not able to come, would you guys stop doing the work and wait for me to come back?
Even if i'm down with flu or some bad cough, i came to school because i can't afford to lose any studies out or work out.
I know where i stands.
I know who i am.
But, you don't even know who i am.
I'm just a classmate.
Im just a friend.
Im just a student.
Im just a daughter.
Im just a sister.
Im just a cousin, niece etc.
You know me by the name, but do you know me by my heart?
I don't wanna make any mistakes, i know. Im cautious person.
I know im a bad daughter. I know whatever i do is wrong in your eyes.
But i don't give up.
Because giving up will just let you win.
And making me lose.
And in the end, i  have to pretend to be good when i'm not.
I meant, in the attitude.
I am good towards you because first, you are my parents.
And i have to. No matter whatever happens, i have to respect you because without you guys i won't be able to stand on where i am now.
And i love you guys for that.
But....
Do you guys know what i want?
Cause i don't know what i am suppose to do now.
I don't know how long i can last with this type of attitude.
I just took up this course because, no matter what, at least i have a future.
But  that's only for you. Because of you guys.

And my friends.
Thanks to you guys, i'm able to smile.
Thanks a lot.
Appreciate it..
Since my grandmother is no longer around, i can depend only you guys because, i shared secrets between my grandmother only.
And to think, that she left without a word but with tears.
I regretted but you guys taught me to be strong and etc.
And you guys make me smile without fail!!
Thanks a lot you guys!!
Rui Xuan!!!
Thanks for being there whenever im up and down!!
Thanks a lot!!
=)
But now, somehow, im sad again..
Do you mind, telling me jokes?
=(
Chat to you again!
=)