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*just to let out everything that is held on to my chest*

Am i your friend?
For goodness sake's! Im your friend, your neighbor, ,your classmates how could you feel like not talking to me?

i know that if problems are to surfaced up into our lives it's damn f*****ing hard to talk. But these had been a few hours and you've got to be kidding me?!

The world does not revolves around you and yes you had to move on with life.

eeesh!~~~!! Gossipers, rumor spreaders, please just get out of my life will ya?

I don't need another trouble to be a burden to me.
I had enough of nonsense here so  yup.
I think it's my fault to be nice to people.
Kind to people that i've even been stabbed back from my friend.
And, i don't want to have another backstabber.

Another person died, peacefully. R.I.P...
The last time i talked to her was on thursday.
Plus, her last words for me is that topic.
Relationships.

It's hard to talk about it, cause it doesn't even crossed in my mind and soul to have a relationship.
Everybody thought i would have but no. My goals in life were un-describe-able.
It's like, i'm a pathetic.
Been called useless even though i'm not.
What is it called?
It's called Life for me.

I did not complained for i know that i will only give people half of my burdens..
So, keeping quiet and write down all my thoughts in a book,
That book is special to me.
Cause in that book, i can communicate .
I let my friends read it cause, they wanted to know why i treasured the book as precious as if it was a golden bar.
And now that they know, they understand why at certain times, i felt that i wanted to run away from home but at the same time i can't. Cos lots of unsettled business i had not done.
So yup.
Now that i can let it out , i can finally breathe in deeply without any worries.
=)