confusing enough...!!

is this what i really want..?
is this what i wanna do..?

but they don't even care, so why should i..?
sigh..
points,points..
Positve ness where are you when i need you the most..?
sigh
am i really up to it..?
wait, am i able to overcome my fears..?

it's almost 2 years since it happen..
will i be able to move on like the rest.?
Dear past, please don't come and make me go back to it.
Can?
I don't wanna be hurt once more and lose more.
I don't wanna be theone who cries everytime i fails..
So, please don't come back!
Next problem...
Overcoming my fear..