Wow. It's been awhile hasn't it..?

Been busy with work ever since i started. But now that i'm in school, yeah.

It's just a week. I mean it's been a week and i already sick.

Body aching like as if it's going to break apart.

Lying on the floor seems much more comfortable then the bed itself.

And i felt cold even though the sun is shining bright.

I guess this is what it's called, School fever right?

I still yet to get fever. Only the symptoms and i'm already tired.

There's so many modules for me to at least pass. I cannot afford to fail.
I've been studying for almost my life now. Ever since i was young.

I don't really get into the course that i hope to get but i do believe that i can open up my heart to learn something new.
But now, i feel like giving up. I don't know. Maybe because right now, i felt sick and down.
What do i want ?
What i hope?
Why am i doing this? When my other friends are working while i'm still studying..?

You know what...? Every time i meet up with my friends, they'll never fail to ask me the same questions over and over again. "Aren't you tired of studying..?" And after that.. "If i were you, i'd rather work than study".  Seriously guys, don't you know me better..?

I mean, come on. You guys should know me more better than the rest. You've seen my head in my books. I'm either reading or dreaming. I'm either sketching or taking down notes.

The thing is, are you guys supporting me or are you guys just penalizing me down...?

I felt like at times you were criticizing me by using 'floral' words instead of harsh words. To make it sounds as if you're not. But hey, i can sense your sarcasm, your critics and stuff.
You said you knew me, but do you even know who i am..? I don't even know who i really am.
Flashbacks keep coming back and sometimes i find myself confused within these situation. =/

This is just how i felt.
Disappointed. Utterly disappointed.