On the verge of giving up..

Hey, you. yes you!

know what..?

im tired of being the one that always keeping it in.
'in'

just one word.
one word to describe what i'm feeling right now.

tired.

i simply can't be bothered by your attitude anymore.

im on the verge of giving up cause, it's been to effing stressful for me to think about it.

sigh..

am i being a brat about it..?


get out of my mind now!
shoo!

stop coming into my head.!

i've got no time for that right now~!

studies came first!
And so be it!

if you really knew me better enough, you would know how i feel right now don't you..?

i can't hide the sadness within my eyes anymore.

at first, i thought it were fine.
but as days and years past by...
i should have never made that promise ..
because of that promise i became of what i am today.

Thousands of words and phrases can't seem to describe what i'm feeling right now.
sadness,sorrow and tired.
can i just give up on you..?

can i..? may i..? should i..?  at least i can focus on other stuff than you.!
what rubbish am i doing right now..?
maybe it's the fever.
but.. heck.!
who cares.
sigh..
sigh..
can i just scream out loud ..?/!
Loud enough for you to hear..?
i'll just keep quiet. from now on..
maybe that's better.
maybe it will be better.
im tired.

sigh....
im on the verge of giving up due to the paper that im suppose to memorize it within a few days due to upcoming test.!
i don't wanna fail..
cause i'm tired of failing.
but now, truthfully speaking, i really feel like giving up.
i feel so tired.
tired like i've been carrying logs on my shoulders and running around the world.
God!
im just tired.