T.G.I.F/reflection

Hey!!
First of all..!
It's friday! yay!!
=))
and.. Class Test for SAM is over!!
=)

the burden now has been lift off!!

now..focus on  NWT Phase test..

sorry guys, haven't been writing in this blog for a few days,weeks and etc.

Been busy with hari raya and stuffs.

and been busy due to study for the class test too.

for some reason, this year hari raya's celebration is not as happening as it used to be.
Maybe its just me. Cause i find it difficult to just accept the fact that my aunt is no longer around anymore.
I should just let it go, that's what most of you would probably say to me, but the problem is, i'vem ade a promise. Looking into those sad-looking eyes and touched her old,wrinkled pair of hands, she  whispered in my ear and say it out, if she were to die, she wants me to see her for the last time.
God, just talking bout it makes me feel guilty as i never see her.
I got the news at night after the whole thing ended.
sigh..

I know i should not be a brat when regarding to problems, like please. All teenagers go through it. And everyone's going through it too right?
But sometimes i find myself crying to sleep at night . Not always but sometimes.
I know i'm not perfect.
I know i can't be perfect as those perfectionist.
Yes, i know i don't score the perfect school grades, but i tried.

Don't you hate it when someone just tell you off using different meanings just so you can't understand what or who they're saying..? But ended up, you know bout it right?
Gosh, that feelings just sucks!
Plainly sucks!

And, just one thing, i'm sick and tired of just being there when you guys needed me and also, the worst part was i can't even speak up about it.
Why can't you just talk to me instead of making feel out of place.? I mean, we were  classmates before right? What's so difficult ..? And, you used to be so quiet and stuff but now you're different.
sigh.
I know people change but just sigh.

I can barely trust anyone right now. and that feeling just sucks.
maybe i'll just trust with my diary.
And! Don't judge!
Keeping diaries and writing in them are cool okay!
When was the last time you wrote in them..?